Sunday, January 18, 2009
I've come to this party to see your place. Just so you can slap my face. One more empty letter to solidify this tomb. I'm never leaving this room. This shaking anxiety won't quit. I'd be better off pranoid. A simple wooden white lie. To feel something other than abandoned. Leave what passed in the past. I'll deal with jealosusly when I get there. Skip to read only the last chapter. Five pages deep it becomes a coaster. Needing attention simply to entertain. Scratch away the winter itch. Shoot out with skillful frenzy. Dry off the clinging freezer burn. Make it all go away. Ten hot seconds at a time. That thing that makes it happen. Over and over and over again. But it's never over with you. My fragile memory won't allow it. You've been the only girl for me. So glad you've stuck with him. Just waiting for this conversation to end. Patiently awaiting another accident. I've come this far just to see your face. So now you can put me in my place. One more letter to decorate my room. I'm never leaving this tomb.