Monday, June 22, 2009
Displaced
"Displaced"
June 2009
These are my eyes but this isn't my body.
My actions are made by another.
This is anything but my home.
It's a house that's run by a mother.
You stopped being my friend long ago.
Running away from that place.
I'll be far away and this won't matter.
Displaced out of sheer disgrace.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Hard Feelings
"Hard Feelings"
June 2009
It was so dificult to breathe.
Always fearing the ebb and flow of blood inside.
She picked up on the scent and got carried away.
We were dead meat floundering on a sea of blue.
Since then I've never been sure of what was real.
I'd get turned on whenever she would cry.
*
With time passing I've been her savior.
From the sidelines i'd scream encouragement.
Anything to alleviate the pain and fear.
Drowning to keep her lifeless body afloat.
Then she began to take from another.
And still I was left to be blamed.
*
I left with nothing while she danced round taking.
She who has it all and hasn't learned a thing.
Yet this hypocrite can never be bothered.
Labeled an albatross while waiting for company.
I gave her everything I never could give.
Simply by giving in and swimming away.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Unreachable
"Unreachable"
June 2009
He's not done. Up to his knees covered in dirt. There's this last bit of work to finish. Finally earning sweat on his blue collar. Here he finds the drive that was once lost. A reason to move forward for vindication. To truely become out of reach from all of them.
Digging deeper under the foundation. Sliding down this unforgiving sinkhole. Somewhere he won't be found. No window, certainly no future. Only memories of what passed. Just his limited imagination. Inside his final isolation. He's only just begun.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Judgement Proof
"Judgement Proof"
May 2009
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Monday, May 18, 2009
Connect Four
"Connect Four"
May 2009
My final lie settles on top of your shit-list.
It may be our thing, but this one is on me.
Carrying the load because we are not smart enough to drop it on someone else.
Those were easier times when I was making everyone cry and you were running.
Erroneously electing another actor king.
Now everyone points fingers while my hand is nestled under your head.
Everything falls into it's own place.
Even if now we act out of character.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Held Against You
"Held Against You"
May 2009
That time of insanity was never forgotten.
The way it spun out was simply rotten.
Somehow I'm the one who made things worse.
Stripped the screw until it rounded.
Hammered it into the wall to no longer be seen.
Away and hidden from what was.
I'd fall to pieces if you ever found me.
*
Know that I can not let it go.
Understand that I have to let you go.
Know that I will not let you know.
*
These parts never seem to match.
Could be your sister or your mother.
Constantly editing and even morphing.
Renaming examples for an easier find.
Unable to place things where they belong.
An ashtray dropped on a decorative grey rug.
My war partner covers me.
*
Understand that it's time for you to go.
Know that I can not have you know.
Understand that I can not let this go.
*
Slowly I've become dangerous.
You do your best to turn the screw.
The sum of your parts will never do.
You're only pushing me to disconnect.
Caressing me for the trouble I started.
Leaving me completely uninvolved.
Right the fuck where I belong.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Uninvolved
"Uninvolved"
April 2009
Another apology is in order. I grow tired of my own lies. The ties that binds will soon collide. That fatal flaw will finally put me over. Right there in the middle. The core of my being put to the test. Yet I never promised. That's not something I do. You'll hold it against me. To stick it in my craw. Then bleed me some more.
I've let go and spiraled out for too long. Uncoiled, unchecked, and untamed. I learned by listening to you. Yet I never said a thing. I quit that too. You sweetly slid and melted down my shoulder and held yourself up against my chest. Looking up you say some nonesense. Then I remind you there's a lie in believe.
